"short"さんとモバ友になろう！
日記・サークル・友達・楽しみいっぱい！
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- 2022/12/18 2:37
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- i'm 30years old soon.
i didn't think much i'm 30years old so far.
recently i'm busy and i don't have so much time for myself.
as a result , i'm exhausted and burned out , lost my friends and my hopes for my future.i became a human who just want to be lazy and who just wants pleasure.
i totally forgot myself and what i want.
what did i want to do in my life?
what did i want to be as an adult?
who did i want as my friends?
where did i live in?
why did i start working here?
why did i live leaving my hometown?
なにがしたい？どうなりたい？誰といたい？
what is my priority?
i've been ever wanting such a silly time here?
i've been ever wanting to work as a slave for anybody else or social?
no i didn't want to be like this.
i wanted to be my favorte partner and live with my family and spend some time with my friends.
i'm sad. i couldn't choose them.
i just lost most of them. i feel like i was robbed them by anybody or anything unknown.
why? i just wanted normal life.
why would anybody eles try to rob other life?that's wrong.
we have to rob something from other people to live or to be happy.
or if you want to live like you , you have to have your will and say it to other.
maybe i might not just be able to do that.
i'm too nice or shy.
as a conclusion , i must be just a stupid man in this world.
Oh my god.
what happens on my life.
i'm sad and lonely because nobody helps me and i don't have any friends to help me anymore.
every my old friends got happiness.
that's good
that sounds good.
that might be good. yeah...
i'm sure that i want them to be happy.
on the other hands , i don't change myself and my life , don't make in progress. i feel like everybody left me in the past or everybody took me a trashcan.
where's there my soul?
what's this boring world?
what what what?
i'm suffering. i'm in the dark. i have to fight alone versus everything everybody.
no i can't stand up. i want to float alone in the dark ocean.i want to reborn.
- i'm 30years old soon.
